No More Excuses

I did something early this morning I've been telling myself for years I didn't need to do: I joined Weight Watchers! I've told myself I could do it on my own, I don't need to pay for a program in order to lose weight. I've told myself that my problem with weight is caused by the trauma in my life, and once I fix that, I'll be fine. I've also told myself, "I don't eat unhealthy," or "I don't over eat." I've blamed the trauma, my mother, my pregnancies, my health, hormonal birth control, etc. I've never blamed the real problem, myself.

Well, the time for me to wake up is now. Obviously my eating habits are unhealthy, you can look at me and see that. But on top of it all, my husband is putting on weight. If he's putting on weight (45 lbs to be exact), then we're obviously not on the right track, I'm NOT on the right track. I don't want my children to end up like us, so it's time to change now, while they're still young.

That's what brings me to this point, admitting I cannot do this on my own. I need help. I had hernia repair surgery 5 days ago, and that surgeon tried to talk me into doing weight loss surgery. I truly feel that I'm not at that point. I have not done enough to feel I can justify taking that step. I had to admit to myself that I really haven't tried to lose weight, that my weight problem IS my fault. I've used food as a drug, to try to make myself feel better, to hide from my emotions. I need to change my life around, put it back together, get back on the right path.

So, why did I choose to go with Weight Watchers to help me with my life style change? I've known several people who have been successful using the Weight Watchers program. Weight Watchers doesn't require you to buy their special food, very important when I live on such a limited income. Right now, there's no fee to register, also very important with my limited income. I like the points system too =)

I decided now was the best time for me to start. I'm limited on my activities for the next month due to my surgery. I can spend that time getting use to tracking what I eat. I'm not going to feel overwhelmed trying to do everything at once. In a month, I should have meal planning and the tracking system down and it be like second nature to me. Then I'll be able to add exercise and make that part of my routine too.

I'm going to use this blog to track my progress, and my trials. I would love support from my friends. Please be supportive and not negative, I have a lot to overcome.